It seems that it's taking me longer to recover from chemo round 2. The fatigue is finally starting to wane today, but the nausea is always lurking beneath the surface and I have to force myself to eat at times (like this morning's breakfast). My weight is back down to 182 but I'm hoping to add to that this week as I get closer to round 3 next Tuesday. I fear that it will get progressively more difficult to bounce back after each treatment.
Mentally I feel fairly strong but at times I am overcome with overwhelming sadness over the whole situation. Thankfully Elaine helps me talk it out when these feelings come over me. This makes it far easier to cope.
This weekend I did manage to help Elaine go to the dump and flip our memory foam mattress (FYI a king size memory foam mattress is a heavy, bulky bastard with no handles). I did some modest household chores too, so I guess I wasn't completely useless. I feel that way sometimes--useless. Again Elaine is always there to pick me up when I'm feeling down.
EAT BOY! I wish I could give you my "fat suit" to sustain you while you beat this thing. :) Not sure the nutritional value of a Pooh Bear figure but I know quite a few happy meals went into making it.
ReplyDeleteJust for the record...you are not useless. You're just enjoying a free pass from some of the mundane chores of life during your cancer sabbatical.
I love you big.
PS. It doesn't surprise me at all that my PIC lifts you up when you feel deflated. She rocks! ...and I love her too!
Love the Bear. Appetite has returned!
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